1:36 AM

Oh help me i feel it overwhelming me. The darkness eats away every joy i have. Please don't take this away. I'd never forgive you if you do.Why are you doing this to me. You have given me hope after years and now you wanna take it away again. I can't live on if it is so. You know how many obstacles my soul has been scared by. Not now not ever. What i have come to love so greatly you're trying to rip me apart from now. What can you say to this. Answer me and don't stay in that box of yours and keep me in suspense and suffer under my thoughts. You're putting me in doom. Why? I don't want to go there. I never wanna go there. We made our promises. I think it's void for i don't think you're keeping your side of it. It's 1 week away from camp. And you're still killing me. And pulling me into the pits. How could you. How am i to serve like this. How am i to say you are my dad? How. When i myself fall into doubt. Are you really who you say you are to be? Prove it.

written, poetic_tragedy

10:04 AM

So yeah.
how do u all feel about life?
for me life is a mess.
truthfully only there's only one reason that really
pulls me out of this pit lately.
i think i need a break from some things.
really.
i think i've gotten so tired of some stuff
i need a break from it.
all i need now is to wait for the dumb retrieval project to come.
I'd spend more time with u i promise ok?
i don't wanna neglect you.
Never meant to.
does it seem that way though?
sorry k.
you priority no. 1
and i'm leaving it that way.
well other than that. i hope my projects will come out well.
and i'd stay in sch...
adios ppl.
LOVE YOU!
xoxo

written, poetic_tragedy

9:37 AM

ARGH!!
I CONDEMNED MYSELF!
HOW NOW!
What if i can't stay in sch!
ARGH! i don't wanna go NS
it scares me.
Don't Leave if i do.
I'd fall real deep.
Don't k?
i'm afraid now. so afraid.
i can't sleep.
my life flashing before me.
and i really can't put myself to rest.
what have i done to myself?!
If i go ns.
what will happen?
i wanna go abroad.
try my luck in a distant place
singapore stress sucks.
singapore sucks!
truthfully.
this whole system sucks!
they put u under the blanket
and start whacking you
till u die.
u wanna know why people are doing more
crazier things? it's because of stress
people result to methods of relieving stress
so Gov. unfderstand this.
We are humans. but not robots.
We love life but not around papers.
give u that life. a life of freedom.
what happened to the statement of freedom we once held
u have brainwashed singaporean to be narrowminded
and power hungry.
you think u're good
but truthfully
u're not.
u're no more than a photocopying machine.
remember.. all machines break down in the end.

written, poetic_tragedy

8:27 AM

so i'm here.
let me say.
things have been a crack lately.
no matter what
I'm still sticking by.
I'm not going anywhere.
Not running away again.
For I've ran and seen the consequences
of those actions.
It's scary.
I never want to go there again.
I'm here to stay.
Stay for good.
I know I've been screwed up lately.
school's been a nut job.
next week's my last week.
Will the school keep me?
so afraid.
What if i have to go army?
what will become of us?
I wanna pull through
everything we encounter
make everything right
before they turn stale
So let's walk forth
and fight things together
not alone. alright?

The desert is now grassland
and rain; sunshine
life is spawning and
wonders will soon arise

written, poetic_tragedy

Past is not equals to the Future

7:07 AM

Life. Why does people like to look into the past so much?
Don't you know people can change?
This world is a world that love to look into the past
to dig it up and dwell upon it.
It's happening everyday
At job interviews for example
what is their first impression when they see a black record
they reject you instantaneously
Why? Is it that they can't give you an opportunity
or let you start a new?

Everyone should be able to start anew with every new face
they meet. Yes the past me come up in conversations.
but don't let that affect ur relationship with the person
for you don't know what good this person has in them
Every has a good and bad.
Why do we always dwell on the Bad though?
When someone nice does something nice for us we go all happy
but when they slip fall and make a mistake
They become our archenemy as we condemn them to oblivion
Give it a break. Stop condemning. Take a look around before you speak.
Think of all the good this person has done for you.
and base your emotion on that.
For life has no time for darkness.
Why not turn to mirror before u speak.
Look at yourself before u condemn someone.
Are you any different?
Yes circumstances always change.
but darkness is darkness
and it dwells within each and everyone of us
no matter how much light we wish to shine upon ourselves
it is always there.
So don't condemn
for you never know when your darkness is gonna surface
and at that point of time.
Your past actions will count.
Don't Condemn.
Don't judge.
For it's a waste of time.
Wait, be patient and listen to your inner self
for darkness is ever deceiving and blinds the soul
Shine now for there's no time to waste.

written, poetic_tragedy

2:30 AM

Hmmm.. so here i am
thinking once again.
what if u had a chance
to make things right.
that u can change to become that perfect
person. would u?
if life pushes you to go
to a whole level beyond your limit
will you?
If life made you to be just that
lil bit more patient.
will you?

It's a question?
questions for me.
but u can ask yourself too.
each of you reading this.
sometimes when we pray for a change
he won't change us but give us
opportunities to change.
to set urself right and push urself beyond ur
current limits.

Will u make that step to make things right?
though it seems impossible?
will you close your eyes and walk and just trust?
I prayer i can.
i really wanna be like that. patient, kind, understanding
loving... u know... that normal.
but what if u find urself growing but u also feel u're
clocking the miles between God and you?

But the thing is. Are you sure u're getting further?
sometimes in life things are the total opposite.
when u think he's furthest he's actually the nearest.
so take heed all of you.
for when you're most lonely he's already there
even before a word is said. sitting beside u reaching our for you.
that's him. u may not sense him. but take a look around next time
when u feel lonely
look at the birds or the trees, the beautiful creation of his
they're always smiling at you.
seeing how wonderful his creation is.

but now... i don't know where i am.
i wish i could be standing in this place where i see him smiling at me.
but i'm blinded. i'm lost.
i need patience, understanding and lotsa love.
i need to get straight again. set my path towards the sun. where light emits from so that when i reach it. i may also be part of this ever bright source from which all light comes from.

give me deliverance from all things.
give me peace.


I pray i may understand u more.
I pray i may learn to love u with all i am
I pray to have more patience with you.
For life i know strangles me at times.
pls pardon me. for neglecting your feelings.

written, poetic_tragedy

3:30 AM

so wat is our real purpose?
how do u know if what u think is not
wat he wants?
com'on think right. ok?
why why can't u just give me my freedom?!
SHIT!When i'm 21 u better give it to me.
actually i demand it.
let me do what i want pls.
yes it may be wrong.
but so wat?
let me learn!
i learn by experience
u know i'm stubborn and arguing will make me be more rebellious
let me roam and be free
fall by trail and in that i'll grow stronger
if u never let me go
when will i ever be strong?
how will i be independent?
i may be a fool now
but if i nvr learn trough experience
wat will i do next time?
understand...
life is a journey.
not a textbook lesson.
every outcome is different
and every person lives alone though together.
we take a step so unique that it's custom made to only fit the
contours of our foot.
that no one else can ever thread it.
we need to walk this life.
though we stray. there's always a detour home.
Fall as i try Grow as i Fly

written, poetic_tragedy

Nama :- Antaeus
Sekolah:- Whitley Sec, Ite Dover
Likes:Floorball,Amplify,Stones,St.Anthony Church, S A Y!,Rugby,The Outdoors Blading, Chilling, Bullshitting, Bassing and all my dear guits And with the love of Music i found life. Dislikes: I don't know. I hate Boredom though i'm 75 percent of the time bored to shit.Yup. oh and i hate ppl who act freaking pityful and like all u know shit ass people who are trying sooo soo hard to pull ya strings but are freaking pissing ya off? yeah THEM! those ones. haha